Denial is a river in Egypt - Your boyfriend doesn't love you

Happy valentines day

Happy Valentine’s Day to y’all. If I’m being honest, I’m not feeling this day at all. The only thing I’m feeling is the presence of the Lord. Anyway, here in Kenya, other than the few lovebirds that are gifting each other and being extremely low key about it, my fyp, status, reels, ig posts, are just Valentine’s Day memes. And Kenyans are quite intense, they started posting from 2^nd January. The shift from Happy new year to Y’all are gonna cry on Valentine’s Day is just crazy.

As much as today people are being loved on, people are also being heartbroken. Some people didn’t even receive a text message today and haven’t felt special. Those in situationships are, well I don’t know, because girl you really don’t love yourself enough to get someone who wants to commit? Here’s the thing though, all this sudden eye-opening today, has been happening for quite some time, but you chose to be blind. Let’s unpack this.

POV 1

You are having lunch with your boyfriend, and you check his phone and there’s some girl texting him and they’re being all flirty, telling each other they love each other. You question him and he answers,

“Oh that’s just my friend. You know sometimes people just need to be cheered up when they are sad, and you know, girls love attention, so I do whatever to make everybody smile.”

And you say, “Oh okay, for a moment I thought y’all were into each other. I get it.”

And you do see him in public being too friendly with other girls but when it comes to you, he doesn’t even maintain eye contact, much less have a conversation with you.

There’s only several reasons for this. He hates you. He doesn’t value you. He’s clearly cheating.

The only correct response that excuse should only be, “I don’t know what it is about me that gave you the impression that I am stupid.” Then play him Boy Bye by Chloe Bailey.

POV 2

For several days you’ve been over analyzing his mistreatment towards you. Honey you’re in denial. You’re always on the internet searching, “Why does he hate me? why does he do this? Signs that a guy hates you.” Well sorry to say this but He does. Sometimes we try to find reasons as to why people do stuff to us, but they’re just doing bad things to you, period.

If you choose to overlook that treatment in hopes of change, you are choosing it. Observe the actions of the said person and decide if that’s how you want to move honeyyy.

POV 3

You’re obsessing over everything, every little thing about this guy. He sends a good morning text, suddenly you want to take him to Old Trafford to watch Manchester United play. He doesn’t text you for an hour, suddenly you cannot eat, sleep, your whole day is ruined. Basically, you’re acting all crazy, yet he does NOTHING. There’s no love there. Not just from him, but from you too. That’s some infatuation on steroids type shit honestly.

Your mood doesn’t have to be tied to a person. I mean, aren’t you your own self, your own individual self? Don’t you love yourself? If anyone is supposed to ruin your day, it should be you.😂

Just kidding, (or am I) Anybody that wrecks your nervous system is not good for you. Somebody play me Trash by Little Mix

POV 4

You throw away your life and dreams for a mere guy. You put everything aside. Your dreams, to accommodate some person’s bullshit. Chances are he’ll lose respect for you, and honestly there’s going to be another girl. I mean, babe “what are your hobbies, your interests. What do you want in life.” Can we focus on you finding your identity instead of basing it all on a person. It’s giving the little mermaid, only that it’s reality right now, there’s no prince charming to realize he loves you later on

POV 5

He texts you,

“Lets go with the flow, or, I don’t think I want anything serious.” You say yes, in hopes that later he will realize your worth and he’ll want to be with you, in a relationship. He already takes you as a joke. The worst part is that he knows you cares and he’s going to do a lot of manipulation and gaslighting. You’re too grown to settle for something you don’t want. Where’s your self-worth queen? Damn!

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Ending this newsletter with wishing all of you a happy valentines day. To anybody who’s not feeling loved or valued today, just a reminder that your value isn’t tied to external validation because of a day, go buy yourself something nice, have fun, be happy, feel the love.

By the way, Happy Valentines day

Yols

. Sending you lots of love and virtual hugs <333

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Hope y’all enjoy the weekend.

Love, Caroline <3